Catch and release….

  DSC_0331-001Last Friday I thought we were done with Louisiana snow days, for this winter anyway. Monday afternoon I snuggled in for a quiet three-day retreat. Food for thought. Rest for the soul.  A balance of quiet and gentle activity.

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During these days I happily rediscovered something : that contentment and peace comes from a stillness within.  By nature I’m a person who enjoys people and activity but there comes a time when quiet is essential for everyone, even an extrovert.   Respite, for me, has been through cooking , reading, watching a film or listening to music (which could be a bus-man’s holiday)…… until I discovered photography.

This week I recalled  North Louisiana ice storms, my father’s patience and dedication, my mother’s humor and my brothers just being there and making life fun. Our family’s ability to ‘be’ without complaint. I don’t remember life being dull or going ‘stir crazy’ in the circle we lived.  In retrospect, I’d say it was simple. Home was enough. It’s that comfort of ‘home’ I settled into for three days: cooking, reading and occasionally talking to family and friends near and far.  Everything I needed I had within my ‘four walls’.  I was content.  Nourishment for the soul.  DSC_0352

Previous generations seemed to  have less difficulty calming the soul. My mother had an uncanny ability to articulate all of life’s situations.  My desire to always beDSC_0006 busy would sometimes lead her to these words: “You’re working yourself into a ‘tizzy’.” My grandfather’s: “You can’t have your cake and eat it too”  puzzled me well into adulthood. But this one from a friend’s mother speaks to our difficulty or unwillingness to  make choices, slow down, just “chill”: “You can’t catch every bus coming.” These pearls of wisdom still have relevance today. DSC_0329 Perhaps even more-so…. in a society that has such difficulty being quiet, alone.

Even in an ice storm some people try to ‘catch every bus’ or wonder why the bus has stopped in the first place.  . . being aware of the beauty that surrounds and staying in the moment. It’s all gift. 

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Snow Day

What a difference a week makes! A month! A year!  Decades!snow cloud

Earlier this week I was lamenting how dreary the month of January is. As if she sat up and took notice,  five magical words spoken today whisked me back to third grade to remind me of January’s joy: “There’s a chance of snow”! What excitement those days brought! Waiting up with my parents and brothers to hear if school was cancelled. Looking eagerly out the window for any sign of a flake. Running out into the night, of course the best snows always started at night.  Hard to believe but back then “inclement weather” was the only time when the girls were allowed to wear ‘pants suits’ and not dresses to school. Even without the snow it would’ve been a cause for celebration!  I’d hope beyond all hopes the fluffy white stuff  would travel the ninety miles from Shreveport and land on our steps. I could feel it coming. Once in sixth grade there was a January ice storm and we were ‘snow bound’ for over a week.

Snow always moved in from the west, from Shreveport. I could feel it coming, smell it. Shreveport became a mystical “Oz”. I wanted the excitement of ‘snow’ so badly that after college I left Monroe and moved there. I wanted a piece THAT action…for me and someday for my children. Did it snow!!!

In December 1982,  the Friday before dismissal for Christmas vacation, I drove to school through a Winter Wonderland with Karen Carpenter playing  “Merry Christmas Darling” on the radio. I remember thinking this is what ‘happy’ is. . . driving through the snow listening to Karen Carpenter. On January 22, 1990 I bid Shreveport and my north Louisiana roots goodbye. She graced us with snow the weekend before we left. Magic!

This afternoon, with a prayer and promise we left a south Louisiana school with the same excitement I remembered from my childhood. Sweet smiling faces poised toward puffs. Tonight, with face pressed to the window pane looking at the night sky and eating my mother’s recipe for chili, I waited eagerly for news of cancellations . We got our wish. Snow Day tomorrow…..S.N.O.W…..

Yes it did indeed snow in Shreveport today….and in my hometown of Monroe too! Maybe tonight it’ll snow in Baton Rouge…..I can smell it! Can’t you? January’s looking up, friends. Welcome friend. Welcome snow! And yes, welcome January!! “The woods ARE lovely, dark and deep…..”

Stopping By Woods on a Snowy Evening

“The melody haunts my reverie…”

DSC_0111January is my least favorite month. Overcast. Dismal. Dreary. Words that are not generally in my vocabulary. Friday afternoon.  A three-day weekend ahead wanting to be somewhere else but responsibilities and rehearsals pending and no energy to leave home, I spent the better part of Sunday sleeping and dreaming of the coming spring and sunshine.

Yesterday I piled on the sofa eating  homemade chicken noodle soup, dozing and watching an old Rock Hudson-Doris Day Rom/Com. A familiar comfort for my soul. Earlier in the week I made plans to explore, visit  my favorite haunts, take pictures. No motivation,  interest.  Only  waiting. Hibernating.  Bears are incredibly smart animals!

At sundown I forced myself to the front  steps.

 The quiet yesterday was deafening until that light. I reminded myself that the light is always there. The quiet. The beauty. I just need to take the time to rest in it’s discovery.

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These last two days I was reminded that we can find beauty in everything:

 “Darkness cannot drive out darkness, only light can do that.”

“Only in the darkness can you see the stars.”

Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

January teaches us balance. It’s a valuable lesson.

“To see the beauty in the world through my own eyes”…..or in a box of chicken

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Saturday on the Boulevard There’s a saying in Louisiana that if you don’t like the weather wait a few minutes and it will change. Change it does. Tuesday morning we woke up in Louisiana to record-breaking nineteen degree weather. Cold, overcast. Some schools even closed.  Four days later it’s in the sixties and the Chamber of Commerce couldn’t have asked for a lovelier day. Life can be much like the weather. Some days we need to carry the sunshine in our hearts.

Awareness.  Gratitude.  A listening heart.

As I write today, many are focused on the outcome of a football  game. Both economically and emotionally, I suppose it’s important to the people of Louisiana. Since last Saturday I’ve been pondering the ritual and traditions of ‘winning’.  I love traditions! I LOVE TRADITIONS!  But I’m not so sure that all of life’s joys and sorrows can be grounded in something as simple as a box…

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“To see the beauty in the world through my own eyes”…..or in a box of chicken

Saturday on the Boulevard There’s a saying in Louisiana that if you don’t like the weather wait a few minutes and it will change. Change it does. Tuesday morning we woke up in Louisiana to record-breaking nineteen degree weather. Cold, overcast. Some schools even closed.  Four days later it’s in the sixties and the Chamber of Commerce couldn’t have asked for a lovelier day. Life can be much like the weather. Some days we need to carry the sunshine in our hearts.

Awareness.  Gratitude.  A listening heart.

As I write today, many are focused on the outcome of a football  game. Both economically and emotionally, I suppose it’s important to the people of Louisiana. Since last Saturday I’ve been pondering the ritual and traditions of ‘winning’.  I love traditions! I LOVE TRADITIONS!  But I’m not so sure that all of life’s joys and sorrows can be grounded in something as simple as a box of chicken……or.  can.  it.

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When I was a little girl growing up in Monroe, Sunday afternoons were a special time. My father took us for family drives in the country often to the “country” to West Monroe to visit my grandmother and other relatives or to Seale-Lily ice cream often ending up at a cookout with family and friends.  Sometimes my brothers and I would get to choose our own destination for these family outings. I rarely wavered from my choice: a picnic of KFC on the grounds of the Monroe Airport to watch the planes. Who says adventure and beauty can’t be found in a box of chicken!

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As we embark on this new year I see beauty, hopes and vision in that box of chicken and in all that surrounds me.

In all that is, was and is to come…..

“I know that who I am is numbered in each grain of sand,

Yes, “I’ve been blest, again and again….”

Taking off your shoes and eating blackberries…

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The final lines of Elizabeth Barrett Browning’s Aurora Leigh is a favorite poem:

“Earth’s crammed with heaven,
And every common bush afire with God,
But only he who sees takes off his shoes;
The rest sit round and pluck blackberries.”
― Elizabeth Barrett Browning

Ordinary people saying yes to living extraordinary lives. There is a difference between extraordinary and simplicity. There are individuals who have learned the art of both.  Perhaps the key is just finding those ‘common bushes’,  taking our shoes off and enjoying the sights or the people who have discovered the ‘art of living’, even if it’s just briefly.

As a musician I know the value of time, it’s importance. Learning to stop and see. Breathe.  Remember. Breathe. Appreciate.  Stephen Sondheim songwriter/lyricist writes: ‘stop worrying where you’re going, move on…if you can know where you’re going….you’ve gone…move on, just keep moving on.’

“Moving on” is a fantastic concept but remembering where you came from so you don’t go back there is also helpful… Let’s not throw the baby out with the bath water either. There are places and people to bring in the moving. Everything in the past isn’t so bad.

Life’s rites of passage complicate matters or more accurately we do. “Clouds” get in the way —Joy and sorrow.  ‘Clouds’ blow about; it becomes easy to  forget about the ‘common bush’, staying  grounded.  The beauty and ‘serendipity’  of this adventure called life is discovering where the ‘clouds’ take you, then trusting enough to take off your  shoes and see glimpses of heaven———–all that it allows—here and now—cloud sarah

What will you do? Spend a few moments and gaze at the clouds in wonder, take your shoes off and feel the grass beneath your feet, share a glass of wine and lovely conversation with a friend or even pluck a few blackberries…..cherish the time…..it’s a new day, a new year