Finding Crème Brûlée

It’s been nearly a year since I began this photo-journal blog adventure. It started as a thank you to my adult children after last Christmas: to my son Patrick for his thoughtful gift, a new camera; to my daughter Sarah for her advice as a photographer and Fifty Fiveblogger. Each time I’ve held the camera my life quietens in prayer for them and for what surrounds me; for those–near and for—who I keep close. It has been a wild ride….filled with fun and adventure. At fifty-five that seems appropriate.

Like most people, these weeks before Christmas are busy with mundane balanced with preparations for the coming holiday. I learned long ago to take an inventory of values and expectations during this season. Traditions are important. . . well, at least to me they are. Name the day and time, keep it. Stay in the moment and enjoy it. All of that was very helpful raising two children. Keep ISimple Silly

Over the last week I’ve been preparing my daughter’s bedroom for a holiday spruce up. The renovation was a long-time coming. This transformation seemed to erase her childhood in my mind. With a few strokes exuberant, innocent hot pink became crème brûlée. She’s an adult. It was time.  primerHot Pink

As I was moving furniture, etc. I found what I thought was memorabilia that Sarah had been saving. Not so much! Mostly empty bags from shopping excursions she and I had taken together over the years when she had been home during holidays and summers. Lovely memories. At the bottom was a HUGE box.

My daughter has lived on her own for the past six years–all over the world. I do have some of her things in storage but I couldn’t imagine what was in it. I saw the box, smiled and laughed out loud.006

Sarah had been studying in Prague, living there for a year. At the end of the year  I joined her in Prague to pack up her apartment, travel a little then back to the states. There was a year’s worth of life to collect. Her suitcases broke; we bought new ones in Vienna. The image of our parade of suitcases on the tiny streets of Salzburg still makes me smile. On a cold, wet June day we decided to ship two LARGE YELLOW boxes back, praying clothes, books, worldly possessions would find their way home.  Neither of us could part with the boxes. Seeing them reminded me of adventures with both of my ‘children’….and the promise of future adventure….for them and for me. It is, after all, our tradition. . .

With those memories hot pink became crème brûlée. In a way, isn’t life like those layers of paint? It’s comforting to know somewhere in me is a shade of pink rose bud layered with green gingham checks. We move on taking pieces with us. . . keeping it simple.

Here’s to tradition…no expectations.  You’ll never know what you’ll find.

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Safe Travels…Going Home

If the only prayer you ever say in your entire life is thank you, it will be enough.

Meister Eckhart

I’ve spent the last few days in purposeful, planned quiet; something that has not always come easy. Sometime back I realized  how much I relish balance. Maybe that’s what draws me to art, photography, music.

Life’s distractions. Turned off. 001-001Armed with camera, an open mind and a few serendipitous plans I traveled forth. The result: a brighter vision and remembering what ‘home’ is.  You carry it with you like a turtle. Finding home “in the kindness of strangers” who offer you a ride to ‘the perfect shot’.  Andale! Gentle Innkeepers. Friends old and new. Warm cities. 007Tolerance014
Safe travels, relaxing in my own skin, surrounded by diversity, tolerance, understanding, walking “placidly amid the noise and haste”.

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Finding here understanding and acceptance.  Safe travels. . .home.

Prayer for Tolerance Gracias a la vita.   Serendipity. Joy. Safe travels. Home. . .traveling with thanksgiving….like a turtle….It is enough. Cullen Sculpture Garden - MFAH 008Cullen Sculpture Garden-MFAH

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Serendipity….right place at the right time. The University of Houston is conducting a study on how the brain is effected by art. I volunteered to be a part of the experiment. Walked around the exhibition with these attached to my head while it recorded EEG. I can check up on the study, my individual part of the study via the University of Houston. VERY COOL!

Simple Gifts

Beware the barrenness of a busy life. ~ Socrates

Three weeks ‘on the go’. Fun-filled adventures.

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GO! In the time I’ve missed the quiet, the camera click, waiting for a sunset, resting in ‘the moment’, simple moments with friends and family. Autumn reminds of me that. A homecoming of sorts. Time to settle in and nest.  During the summer I made hard choices about future projects. The autumn ran away with those choices like a race horse. I allowed it.

Last weekend I traveled to my hometown for the first time since July. It’s good to touch base with those people who share collective memories, love you no matter what. Driving back, my thoughts drifted to the idea of unconditional love…. my parents, family, dear friends, my children.

DuetLA Tech Band HomecomingMonroe-St. Matthew's and Post OfficeI can only hope that I’ve been as generous and accepting with  those special people in my life….my family, friends and students. . . and beyond.

The road leads us many ways in a busy life…some days the path is straight, some days…not so much….the gift is finding the simple way and loving through it. IMG_2984

Priceless

August has slipped through my fingers like quicksilver. Hibiscus

Summer’s blooms fade into the rhythm of schedules and  commitments as I find reminders of the sweet carefree days, a lovely  summer —- varied, calm….calling me to change.

A few more days before packing away white shoes and linen.

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Certainly, August is always busy with school starting.  The last few weeks I had an opportunity to act in a new play. It was nice remembering that kind of trust. . . in myself and others. Humility. Vulnerable.  It’s good to tap those.

Last week I was out of town. Serendipity. Craft services—cooking while my daughter directed her Thesis film. The quiet while I was preparing the meals was good for the soul. The camaraderie during meals and on set was good for the heart. I returned home tired but replenished….and very proud. Certainly seeing my daughter’s artistic vision come to reality was cause for pride. . . but greater still is knowing the kind of people she and my son have become.

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Priceless. The word I use to describe the time I spent. The weather was cool and crisp. I cooked all my favorites: gumbo, jambalaya, red beans and rice….meals I’ve made for decades and prepare well. Cuisine taught to me by my mother and grandmother. Outside the kitchen door there was a beautiful vine with grapes. Scenic.  I realized when I got to the airport Sunday that those grapes are like many things along life’s journey, something saved in a memory bank and not on a photograph. It’s almost better that way. Sunrise- Day Two - Typical Haunts

This is an excerpt of something I found in my inbox Monday morning…from Ron Rolheiser: “We need more and more to trust love and surrender, to let go of ourselves, especially of our pride, our wounds, our hurts, our mistakes, our past, and our weaknesses, to give ourselves over to forgiveness……Morris West said that at a certain age, it should come down to one word: “Thanks!” He’s right, but to say that one word and mean it we need three other words: “Forgiveness, forgiveness, forgiveness!”

Just like the rest of August, it had perfect timing….was priceless.

 

 

 

Into The Light

Hard to believe this is the last Friday night of Summer 2014.  What an adventure’s it’s been! A often unpredictable and unusual ride!   Texas Longhorn

Rest – check  Refresh – check Reacquaint – check. check. With myself…with important others.

Consciously balancing time out of the ‘rodeo’ with healthy activity this summer has made a HUGE difference in attitude.  H.U.G.E.

From Greek Fest on a New Orleans bayou to long lazy chats over coffeeDSC_0834 on a Arkansas front porch. Mountain ThymeDSC_1002From  introducing theatre to the next generation of actors and patrons to morning and evening swims and ‘runs’.

Quiet with books, photography, cooking, cleaning and writing.

Singing and dining with inspiring conductors who are both humble and humorous, who take the music much more seriously than themselves.  Stephen Cleobury concert

Collaboration in a new way with other artists grateful that an old dog REQUIEMS call sheetcan learn new tricks even in the early morning hours.

The joys of brunches. Occasional lunches. Spontaneous suppers. Wine on the front steps. Late night conversations. Sunday morning conversations with old friends. Visiting a “sister”. Leslie and me

Knowing the love of family. Seeing those ‘babies bloom’ is sweet.  Like the gardenia bush in my front bed that I planted, pruned, watered and watched grow.  Now, I appreciate how beautiful the blooms are….and they ARE exquisite. Sarah and ChristineFamily

Yes, there are a few summer chores left undone. The benches on my front steps still need mending and painting but I’ve tended to the important things.  My mother was right. Some mending is best to  wait for cooler weather. Starting school Monday with “i’s dotted and t’s crossed”. Rejuvenated with a promise and hope for the few things left unfinished.

Thanks Summer! Looking towards Autumn….

out of the ‘dark’… into the light…..double sunset

 

 

 

The Joy of July

NLU SunsetI’ve looked forward to the languid days of July for months. Plans of quiet days and rest. Plans for reunion and homecoming.

Last Saturday, my car filled with memories of two little girls riding bicycles in the streets until dark, singing songs until we were hoarse and playing Barbie’s and ‘dress up’…. I drove to my north Louisiana hometown to visit my childhood friend. There, I rediscovered my “blood sister”… ‘family’. Leslie and me 1960'sThe journey has been long but well-worth the wait. The bonds run very deep. There is  always enough. Enough love. Enough joy. Enough time….to share…..and like the fruits of July…… it multiplies. blackeyed peasRuston Peaches

I’m so very grateful for second chances…for each second chance…..for friendship….

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Wisdom Journey

Saturday was the Summer Solstice.  A time to renew, Summer Solstice Sunsetrefresh, reinvent. Within. Around.  Remembering that in doing and not doing there is joy. Sometimes it takes  a while to discover  the rhythm but once found the cadence of summer is sweet .

Joseph Campbell called it ‘following your bliss’. I rediscovered those delightful days  last summer— along with this poem by Rainer Maria Rilke. . http://intoitevents.com/2014/05/29/like-a-river/

“May what I do flow from me like a river,  no forcing and no holding back.”

This summer I’ve remembered the flow of that river with ‘no forcing or holding back’,  ‘the song as no one ever has’. The discovery that we each compose our own song is sweet and freeing.

Not that I hadn’t been true to the journey….sometimes there’s a detour, a bend in the river….. a flat tire….tire

 

Aladdin 2I once thought to be true to myself meant embracing the world with a wide-eyed, über-enthusiastic grasp. Doing EVERYTHING with such passion.  Now I believe it’s wiser-eyed enthusiasm.  A passionate calm. Making wise choices about time, talent, treasure. Friends. Family. Sometimes easier said than done on the journey.

I was reminded of a personal anecdote last week. At age four I walked seven blocks to my grandparents house without my parents permission or knowledge. My parents thought I was lost, missing.  The family story goes that when I was asked how I got there I answered: “On my own two yegs“.   Was the act independent and fearless or disobedient, I don’t remember. I’ve thought about that little girl; the courage to take that seven block journey, other life journeys.

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Yes, summer is quiet.  A time of wisdom. Standing at the doorDSC_1017-001….ready and waiting….. on my ‘on two yegs’.

 

 

 

Cue. Summer.

DSC_0922It’s been a busy two weeks since school was out and my last post. I’m always amused by people who think that teachers do nothing in the summer.

After over thirty years in the business I typically smile in response. I was born to teach. I recall gathering ‘the children’ to teach them songs at the neighborhood center my mother directed when I eight years old but now I understand the wisdom in rest and rejuvenation.

Cue. Summer. DSC_0905DSC_0870DSC_0901

Lazy days.  Grace-filled days. Family. Friends. Quiet solitude. Reflective. Laughter. Snapshots of Summer.  DSC_0891DSC_0872

I’ve given some thought to these warm, humid days.  The naming and keeping.

 

 

 

Summer’s mystery isn’t always found

in the naming and keeping of

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Sometimes only our absence can deepen and cleanse our presence.

Sometimes it is better that we go away, for a day or for a season.

Making the reunion ever so sweet….

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